Nic Askew: Gillian Ferrabee, the film subject, toured the world as a professional modern dancer, tv and film actress. She is now creative director at Cirque du Soleil. But as is so often the case, CVs, resumés and headlines can lay an opaque mist that obscures a person from those that care to look … there is no other place, there is no other time. There is only now. So came the realization after life threatening surgery, leading to the conclusion Don’t hold back, this is it.